At the birth of our daughter I am Overwhelmed, is an understatement. It must have been about 12-15 months ago, that we began to get phone calls and have people see us or email us to tell us we were going to have a baby and that it would be a girl...."when we heard these things we pondered them in our hearts... "Our son Adam who was 4 was with mummy and said about a year ago "mummy you are going to have a baby girl and it is going to be soon". We had not shared anything with them about the other people who had said this...so when we became pregnant a few months later we remembered what Adam had said. we actually believed we were having a girl and had the name about 6 months before baby was born. then just to be careful we came up with a boy's name as well. We were just believing for a happy healthy baby.
So now I sit after watching and participating in an amazing natural birth...Zoe Anna Atreyi Karlsson delivered at 5:10 p.m. On November 11, 2010...wow my wife is amazing! For me, having a girl is very restorative in my life, as a young and unknowledgeable Christian I once was in a relationship with someone who had an abortion with my child about 20 years ago...since that time I had a vision and went to Heaven and saw a little girl and asked for her forgiveness.Heaven was amazing and my favorite scene was watching the children who were dangling their legs off the edge of heaven while almighty God the Father was doing a really cool celestial fireworks show and they were laughing and clapping.
Back to present day, the enormity of the responsibility of having a baby girl which means a daughter of mine is sinking in. As a man I ask God to give me his heart to purely and wholly care for her.Not ever being in a home to see men honoring and respecting women, my journey of respect and love has been kind of trial and error.
I do have some beautiful friends that have modeled how to love and care for their spouses which has been a deep encouragement and valuable impartation into my life.
This is a season in my life of fruitfulness...big fat babies, big fat friendships big fat blessings at work, big fat new ideas...after having been through a famine desert waste and barrenness for a season at the death of my first wife 3 years ago, this is really a different and beautiful time.
I do not wish to get fat in my Spirit and pray that God will draw me nearer to Him.There are many other things we are called to in addition to our family life...but I am certain that God in His perfect timing will bring clarity and direction. All our futures even this little gift of Zoe are in God's hands.
